They say comparison is the thief of joy and they (those who say this) would be correct. It is when we start focusing on the things in our life that seem to be missing rather than the incredible amount that we have, that we tell ourselves we don't have enough. That we aren't enough. That Christ isn't enough.
That's my struggle. 6 days out of 7, I live this life that is so full of joy I can hardly stand it. I am so fulfilled in my job, in my family, with my friends, with my God at this stage in my life that the don't haves start to fade, 6 days out of 7. But it's on that 7th day when I get really lonely and start wondering why I'm not enough. What do I need to change to find love? Why hasn't God sent (insert name) into my life?
But you know what, those 6 days out of 7 are what I am going to put my effort, my attention, my focus on. Because I have so much more to offer than my insecurities point out that I don't. I want to strive to live the life that God created me to live and you know what, if He has different plans for me than I do myself, why would I want anything different for myself?
That is easier said than done, I know. Trust me, I know. At almost 24 years old, the southern culture I am surrounded with screams that since I haven't found anyone I will be alone forever. They are wrong. I am choosing to believe they are wrong. But I struggle daily with saying that Christ is enough for me and meaning it. But maybe, just maybe that is where Christ wants me. Maybe He knows that I struggle with that and that I also am striving to mean it and He is going to push me until I get there. I am choosing to find happiness and choosing to see beyond the single struggle into a struggle towards the heart of Christ.
